I cannot help it if my paintings do not sell.
But the time will come when people realize that they are worth more than the cost of the paint.
     -- Vincent Van Gogh

Vincent
Don McLean,
1971

Starry Starry Night
Vincent Van Gogh
Saint-Rémy, France: June, 1889

Moonrise
Ansel Adams
Hernandez, NewMexico, 1941

Lots of stuff happening in the past few days. No, real work though.

I saw Nagesh Kukunoor's Dor. Nice film. I believe Kukunoor is making the mistake of being creative in Bollywood, that might be an expensive mistake. So much so that people will have to keep talking about his work years later, while he pretty much nothing out of it while it matters. How wonderful. So Dor is a creative hindi movie, as far as conventional hindi movies go.

I found the storytelling weak and/or cliched in parts - had it not been for this, it would have been a fairly top class movie, maybe among my all time favorite hindi movies - this also means that it would have surely done worse at the box office. With these flaws added in it stops being a truly great film and instead becomes a nice film - certainly worth watching. The main characters all play their parts really well - especially Gul Panag and Ayesha Takia.

This weekend I got to listen to IU's philharmonic orchestra play Beethoven's 5th. Wow! The piece has a completely different power and energy when you hear it live. I was blown away. I was also much impressed by the attention to detail and the sheer wonderful complexity of something like a philharmonic orchestra. Lovely.

This isn't IU, but everything else matches.

On the music scene, this weekend, I also got listen to Bob Dylan. Live. No kidding. Dylan was playing at IU (for some reason). I had not known about this and it was hardly advertised. One of my students in my Operating Systems class mentioned it to me in passing. He is Iranian and we were talking about Firdaus and Khayyam when he mentions Dylan. The concert itself was a bit of a let down. We didn't get great seats, though they were rather good. IU's audio systems were a let down and so most of the time I couldn't catch the lyrics. This is also partly due to Dylan - if you think he sounded rough and raspy back in the day, you should listen to him now. Despite all this it was, in some sense, soul satisfying to see the man in person and listen to him sing, I doubted if I would ever really get a chance to, considering that he maynot be singing for a whole lot longer.

Here are some lovely videos from Dylan's early days, when he still used to "sing". These days most of his songs, even his present renditions of his classics have degenerated into a sort of chant, sometimes short coughed up statements with background music. But well, the magic of Dylan will always be just that, magic.

Tambourine Man, 1964:

Blowing in the Wind, 1963:

The Times they are a Changin, 1965:

More on the music front IU's opera series had Carlisle Floyd's Susannah this weekend. This was a far more moving presentation that IU's attempt at Rigolleto, from last month. As before the stage setup and costumes were excellent. For Susannah, they had several layers of translucent curtains covering the stage. When each scene starts the actors stand perfectly still giving the illusion that one is looking at a life size painting. The lights slowly brighten and the screen lift bringing the scene to life gradually and then the actors start to move. It was brilliant. The singing and performance, for the most part, was also very good. I would certainly recommend watching it - its playing again next weekend.

Moving on from  the music scene, last week there was talk by the famous logician and philosopher Saul Kripke. IU is getting a new president, Michael McRobbie, and Kripke's talk was one of the many functions related to the Presidential Inauguration events. President McRobbie, I am told, is also a logician of some renown and hence, Saul Kripke was speaking at IU.

I personally don't know much about Kripke's work except for the "Kripke Semantics" for intuitionistic logic. This (I like to believe) I understand, pretty much everything else starts to go downhill, especial all the modal stuff. My brief encounters with some of the related areas leads me to conclude that most of my own thinking is oriented more towards constructive mathematics than to classical mathematics. This was the official description of the talk.

Saul Kripke, distinguished professor of philosophy at the Graduate Center of the City University of New York, will deliver Indiana University’s inaugural Presidential Lecture in Alumni Hall of the Indiana Memorial Union. He intends to speak on “The Collapse of the Hilbert Program,” a philosophically significant topic with a technical result. Kripke received the Schock Prize for Logic and Philosophy in 2001 and is considered by some to be the world’s greatest living philosopher and logician.

Needless to say I didn't get much out of it. I think I understood what was said broadly, but didnt get any of the details. It was however rather nice to see Kripke himself. His talk started out with some details that I felt I understood and somewhere 5 mins in into it, it took a nose down dive and I had no idea of what he was saying. I remember trying to recollect details about the arithmetic heirarchy and Pi^0_2 systems and such. I felt this was pretty much the state for most of the audience. Disturbingly though, my advisor was with me and he seemed to be understand a lot of the details..

I remember this one point towards the end of the talk - in the front row sat one of the senior professors of the department, an emeritus, and very well known logician. Kripke was saying something was completely baffling to my intelligence and it seemed like the elderly professor was nodding. At this point, Kripke asks the professor, calling him by his first name (they knew each other), "Hey *, Are you nodding because you are understanding?" and he replies "oh, No". It was hard to suppress laughter. Enough said.

Today there was a talk at IU by Professor Neta Bahcall, the Eugene Higgins Professor of Astrophysics at Princeton University. Fascinating stuff, I haven't been to a good physics talk in ages. She was talking about "The Dark Side of the Universe". The discussion today was largely about "Dark Matter" and "Dark Energy" in the universe, the reasoning behind their existence and such. Makes me wish that I had never switch to CS and had stayed with physics somehow.

This is a two-part lecture. The session on Thu will talk about the  history of the universe in some approximate detail. Prof Bahcall's presence at IU is part of what we call the Patten lecture series. they get eminent speakers to come and talk about a variety of topics. Last year one the speakers was Amartya Sen who talked about the notion of identity.

Today I finally received my copy of "The Lightning Should Have Fallen on Ghalib", my second book on Ghalib's works. The first was Chirag-e-Dair which I picked up at Mumbai airport the last time I was flying out of India. Needless to say Ghalib is fascinating. He had me laughing and chuckling at his chutzpah in minutes.  This is a rather good quality English translation and contains verse in Devanagiri (Hindi) and Urdu script.

In paradise, as we know, God showed Adam the door.
When I have been shown your door, I feel a shame deeper than his.
                     -- Ghalib (as translated by Sunil Dutta)

Fall has come to Bloomington and rows of trees shine golden, orange and fiery red. Such beauty before the waste of winter. I have been enjoying taking pictures.

There is more, I am too tired to write.

I haven't been getting much *real* work done, though I have been thinking about things. The other day, my advisor mentioned to me the importance of "doing the boring work", the context of writing this paper that I have been delaying for a while now. For over a year or so, I have been walking around with one or two publishable pieces of work and been not doing very much about it. He is very patient man, far more that I would have been in his place. I fear that I should do some "boring" work one of these days, or be disowned or something like this. :)

(Dear Microsoft Live Team, why does "Windows Live Writer" get slower with each new release? I will have to refuse to upgrade if this is a mandatory new feature each time. Please take out the Thread.Sleep()s.)

"Can you recommend any C++ books?"
"I don't recommend C++."

Afterwards I reluctantly come up with some names. I beginning to notice that I eventually end up mentioning the Scott Meyers "Effective C++" books. The last time I did this I started to wonder why I say this?

When I first read "Effective C++" I was horrified. If I derived any pleasure out of it, it was comparable to the morbid curiosity of going to witness an execution (I probably would not do that though, if I ever got such a chance. I don't have the stomach for it). Back to C++ - Firstly there was no way I was going remember all of that. Secondly I felt deeply uncomfortable. In time I realized that the whole book was written in the style of demonstrating "effective" usages of C++, while what it truly was is a careful documentation of the flaws of the language. Every chapter in that book talks of a language flaw in excruciating detail and how to live with it. That book should have been called "Defective C++".

Then there was "More Effective C++" which essentially did more of the same.  Here is what the language does, here is what you think it would do, here is what you'd like it to do and you put these together and it blows up in your face. In time, my intellectual immune system kicked in and started erasing most of my memories about all this.

So why do I recommend the "Defective" and "More Defective" books? My first recommendation would be to get out of the situation, don't deal with the language if that's possible. If not, and you intend to get it to serve you (instead of the converse) you need to quickly understand that most of the abstractions it provides are leaky. There are hardly any non-leaky abstractions that C++-land provides. (Some people associate this behavior with some notion of "freedom" - I trust evolution will take of those folk.)

So if your abstractions are leaky, in that they are going to have strange interactions with each other under-the-hood, then you should quickly start developing an understanding of what happens under the abstractions you are given. Your effectiveness as a developer becomes proportional to your understanding of what happens under the surface. Hence the "defective" C++ books are a useful read.

Today Aziz mailed me a build of his Ikarus compiler for Windows. Though I don't have much to do with software as such these days, I was excited. Ikarus is Aziz's Scheme Compiler. I use Petite Chez Scheme on my machine. Petite  is Kent Dybvig's Scheme interpreter, part of the Chez Scheme compiler system. I don't have Chez Scheme itself because it sells, I am told, for several thousands of dollars and hence I cant afford it. I expect Ikarus to be comparable to full Chez in many ways and surpass most other Scheme systems out there.

What Aziz sent me was a zip file that extracted to a 128k exe and 4mb "boot" file. He says the boot file says the same between windows, linux and mac. The bootstrap executable changes. This is amusing because the "boot" file is actually the compiler binary. It contains the compiled x86 code.  He able to get away with this because he only relies on the OS to load his little bootstrap exe. After that point he simply allocates memory pages from the OS and relies on the OS for almost nothing that he can do himself. So the exe loads the boot file into memory which then acts as its own loader, sets up its own stack, lays out its own code and data areas, does its own GC and such.

Of course, all of this is written in Scheme itself. There is probably a small C file somewhere that acts as the main() and the initial call into some ASM code that transfers control to Scheme. Fun fun.

I have talked to Aziz about many parts of this system and almost always the design has seemed to be of very high quality. His management of code objects, the runtime stack, continuations and on and on. The system has a large part of R6RS implemented and is already a superset of R5RS as far as I understand. Depending on how the development process stabilizes (after all, this is all one persons implementation), I might move over Ikarus altogether and maybe use it exclusively. 

Joan Baez, 1966, singing Dylan's "With God on Our Side".

After being relatively upset about Parzania, I found myself at the RSS community page on Orkut. Needless to say, that was even more disturbing. It was without a certain amount of morbid horror that I looked at their polls, their organized report-as-fraud activities, their cyber-lynchings and such.

I usually don't like to deal with this sort of thing. I am complacent, cowardly and comfortable in my relative safety. It bothered me to think that if I had no fear it would be dishonest, or just plain stupid.

I happened to look at my blog and saw Star Trek and the Q next to Parzania, it struck me what the Q might say about India and the RSS. "Your species is always suffering and dying", he would say in his How-entertaining--What-do-you-expect-anyway attitude.

And indeed, what do I expect? The world has always been a barbaric place. We express surprise and shock at the slaughter of Delhi by Nadir Shah, the slaughter of the Sikhs after the assassination of Indira Ghandhi, the India-Pakistan partition riots, the Bombay bomb blasts, the Ghodhra riots, (and hardly just India) the Khmer Rouge regime of Cambodia, the Rape of Nanking, the Hutu-Tutsi conflict, the occupation of Iraq, the massacre of the Algerians... and on and on and on. Just too many to list. In fact so many, that one should ask, what's the big deal? This is, after all, human nature.

People have been always mercilessly wiping out entire populations of "others" based on some definition of identity. Why are we so surprised by this? Why do we expect that in the times of our generation the world should have magically become a "civilized place"? Hardly, if you look at the evidence.

It will be a long time before we turn into a species that is not always suffering and dying. Something truly deep and fundamental has to change about us for that.

In the short term however, in a few hundred years or maybe in our own lifetimes, the vices of our day shall blow away to be replaced by other ones. To make any of them to go away, something fundamental needs to change that invalidates their cause of existence. A little like the way Frown Power and Superman destroyed the Ku Klux Klan, might there be an Indian equivalent? Prosperity? Accountability? Can we motivate such a change?

Q: Let us pray, for understanding and for compassion.
Capt. Picard: Let us do no such damn thing! What is this need of yours for costumes, Q? Have you no identity of your own?
Q: I come in search of the truth.
Capt. Picard: You come in search of what humanity is!
Q: I *forgive* your blasphemy!

I watched Rahul Dolakia and David Donihue's Parzania today.

I don't feel like describing the quality of the production in any way. For a film like this, it doesn't matter. I don't want to use my own words. Gujarat : Lengthening Shadows Of Swastika :

Gujarat carnage was very different from the communal violence which took place in Independent India so far. Here one could most clearly see the well planned violence unleashed on the pretext of Godhra train accident, duly supported by the state Government under the patronizing eye of the central government. While every possible rule of the law was violated by the authorities, the hapless victims were left to rot in the refugee camps with atrocious living conditions, totally ignored by the state government. The mirror of Gujarat's dominant social thinking was to come to light soon with the winning of elections by Narendra Modi, who had played central role in the violence. What has been happening in the social milieu of Gujarat is beyond belief as far as the democratic norms and the communal amity is concerned.

This film left me angry and with a distantly familiar feeling of helplessness at the destiny of my country. A country whose several thousand year old deep rotting "culture" fills me with disgust; a deep disgust and shame at its lethargy and pretentiousness; at its devices for breeding contempt and entrapment.

What bothers me the most is that I am sure these things will happen again. Every bit of my intuition tells me so, and I am helpless to do anything about it. With no accountability, no information, I cant see how to instigate any lasting change. How do you bring accountability to a country like ours?

Did I ever mention that I have always been a die hard Star Trek fan? I havent watched any of the Star Trek series as much as the Next Generation, so my admiration of Star Trek is largely limited to the Next Generation. I got up today morning and with some ado I decided to look at the notes for a test I have about Computational Complexity. I hate exams where I actually have to look at the notes for any non-trivial reason. Even worse, I hate subjects that make me need to look at the notes when I really shouldn't have to, had my love for the subject been left undistrubed. Irritating.

This reminded me of the "human equation" from one of my favourite Star Trek episodes, "Hide and Q":

Data: "Sir, how is it that Q can handle time and space so well, and us so badly?"
Picard: "Perhaps one day we will discover that space and time are simpler than the human equation."

Googling for this, I came across Q saying: "Your species is always suffering and dying".

This considerably cheered me up. Ok, back to the notes. (Later addition: if you want to read a nice spoiler about the episode go here. Please read it only for memory sakes, dont read it if you havent watched it already. Ok, now back to my notes).